I started writing up notes on this and put them in a simple blank page… but I think it will be easier for me to edit and add to the notes if it’s a normal page in the blog. So, here we are!
Please be warned of possible spoilers and foul language. Also please note that I use the original names of some characters over the English rendition.
DOD3 “Story Side” novel takes place in the year 1017, exactly 17 years after the events of DOD3, from the perspective of Brother One as he’s retelling the events to an unknown audience.
ONE: The Little Sisters’ Chapter
Zero thinks that Mikhail smells like baby vomit. Not all dragons, just Mikhail…or so she says.
Zero tried to commit suicide by stabbing herself in the heart. She tried to dig the flower out of her with her sword as if it were a newly planted seedling.
She recounts how her sense of touch and of pain changed from that point onward. The flower sprouted out of the gash in her chest when she stabbed herself. She lost all feeling in her limbs for a moment during this…as she was overcome by violent screaming (imagine Five’s end) and the huge flower coming out of her chest. It began spewing blood, and from that blood came the other Utautai. They appeared to be either 3 or 4 years old.
Zero mentions how the faces of the children seemed so familiar to her, but she couldn’t recall from where. (This is probably a direct reference to the women who were killed while Zero was in captivity during the rebellion. I think we can now firmly confirm this connection and how the Flower probably used—maybe even *ate*—the memory of these women to use as models for the Utautai girls. Two was the first to call Zero “sister, before she was even able to articulate words properly.
Zero contemplated on why the girls called her “sister” since she felt “mother” or “father” was more accurate. She thought it was “slightly misleading” to call them all sisters. Zero thought that she needed to dispense of the girls while they were still young and weak, and as she moved in on Two, One intervened, stepping between the two and screaming, “NO! You traitor!!” That’s when the girls escape. Zero could hardly even move a single finger to stop them. She literally could not move. She understood that it was through her own error that allowed the Flower to multiply through the birth of the Utautai girls…and it is her responsibility to correct that mistake.
It apparently took the girls less than 3 months to grow to adult size. This part makes no reference to specific events in Utahime Five, but it mentions Zero’s eventual reunion with the girls in the Cathedral City a year later. This is accurate with the timeline listed in the World Inside book and allows time for One to create Brother One, as well.
Zero saw how the girls, born from the flower of destruction, began to use their powers to “save the world” as some sort of sick irony. She didn’t care if they might actually be able to bring peace to the world; the fact still remained that Zero caused them to be born from her mistake, and she had to pluck them out of existence. It had nothing to do with “good” or “evil”. And that’s why the younger Utautai hated and called her traitor.
Zero remembers where she’s seen Five’s face before… It was when she was running around stealing and killing for food. She broke into an Abbey to steal food and kill all of the nuns. It was one of these nuns that shared Five’s face.
Five’s Face: A nun whom Zero killed.
It was indeed the power of the Flower that took Zero’s memories of women she had met throughout her life and created the body and personalities of the Utautai girls. There’s no mistaking this language here. However, each one of the Utautai girls resemble a part of Zero herself. More on that and some additional speculation below:
Not only did the Flower use these other girls as a base, but it mostly used fragments of *herself* to create them… almost like those are the bits and pieces of herself that she somehow lost when they were created. It doesn’t really say that she “lost” any of herself per say, but it would be an interesting view… so say that Zero is actually trying to find herself by killing them and reclaiming–and accepting–that dark and neglected part of herself… in order to move on. UnnUnn. It may just be my brain going crazy with ideas, though.
Four reminds Zero of herself as a young girl who was thrown into the brothel and how she tried to hold on to the smallest bits of pride (self-importance) she still had left.
She says that Two and Three are too freaking “out there” that she can’t bring herself to find any similarities with them… but she admits that there is a fragment of their madness within herself. Zero thinks that Two is what she could have been like had her life been different… she could have learned to love the world and be carefree…and find true love herself.
One totally puzzles her, though. She doesn’t understand where her strong sense of justice, her seriousness, and intelligence… The Flower might have “thought” it would be a good defence mechanism, “thinking” that Zero wouldn’t have the guts to face herself and kill them to get rid of it….and herself.
That dying girl with her eyes gouged from torture that Zero knew is the basis for One. Same voice and hair, but she could never be sure of the color of her eyes due to the torture she had endured.
Five can talk directly into Zero’s head…? Like telepathy? That was never in the game. Maybe it was too hard to demonstrate. During the battle with Five, Zero hears her taunts inside her mind. So even if she didn’t want to hear it, there’s no way to shut out the words in her mind.
It seems like when Five and Dito summon the Angel… Five sort of “becomes” the angel?? After Mikhail defeats it, Five suddenly appears in the same spot where Phanuel was…
That one line that was censored from the original cutscene with Dito kicking Five was printed in the book. I couldn’t really hear what he said well from the video…but now it’s pretty clear. Here’s my translation (the one line is quite graphic but I think is pretty telling of her character):
“You worked me hard up until now, you hag! You say and do what you please because I’m an Apostle. “I love you”?! You play and toy with people to your heart’s content. I wonder which mouth you say that with! You disgust me!”
This is a short segment of Five’s consciousness/soul crying out after her “death”, saying “I don’t want to die! I don’t want to die!” over and over again. She prays to continue living, even if she loses her voice and loses sight of who or what she is… even within the pitch black abyss or buried beneath the cold earth… She wants to live, just to live. Because she has yet to be content, she wants more. Much, much more. She decides that she will not die, she refuses for her life to end because there are so many more things that she wants. Desire and obsession began to give her Strength, Strength from the Flower enough to be reborn anew.
She then wonders where Zero might be. She mentions how much she wants to meet her again…so Zero might finally become hers. Zero, her dragon, anything and everything…
TWO: The Dragon’s Chapter
This portion of the chapter details Four and her un-relationship with Decad. First of all she talks about having a recurring nightmare of falling from the sky night after night, always screaming awake in the middle of the night in a cold-sweat. If she would change her sweat-soaked night clothes, she would only have the same nightmare again and awaken in another cold-sweat, repeating this cycle over and over again. At first she didn’t have the dream all that often, but suddenly the number seemed to increase so much that she actually spent more time being troubled by nightmares than actually sleeping.
She doesn’t understand why this is happening to her. She’s never done anything wrong to deserve it, she’s always done the right thing. As the bitterness grew within her, she would unconsciously bite her nails. It’s been half a year–maybe closer to a full year–that she’s suffered from these nightmares and she believes that it’s because her sisters seek to kill each other. That’s why Four wanted to stop fighting. She told this to Zero and One but they wouldn’t listen to her.
That’s when there’s a knock at her door. “Lady Four, have you had another dream?” It was Decad. Every night he would wait outside Four’s door to protect her. He would always hesitate to call out to her or not…and it’s this apparent weakness that Four hates. She understands that it’s the duty of the Apostles to protect their respective Utahime, but to camp out in front of her bedroom door, without sleeping all night, is stupid. So if he’s awake all night, why doesn’t he call out to her the moment she screams from a nightmare? Like he could sleep next to her or something…so he could be there to comfort her when she wakes. She doesn’t think it makes any difference whether he’s outside or inside her room if he’s going to stay awake the whole time. She doesn’t understand why he’s so oblivious.
Out of her own frustration, she throws a water pitcher to the floor, the sound of it shattering echoes through the small room. Hearing the crash, Decad asks what happened, which only causes Four to become more irritated as she tells him to shut up. That good-for-nothing pervert! she screams in her head. He might have a large body but his brain isn’t any bigger than the tip of one’s pinky finger. What good has he ever done her?
He again calls out to her, possibly seeking to ask permission to enter her room, but Four only gets more and more angry.
“Shut up! Shut up! Shut up!!”
She springs out of bed and dashes over to the door, opening it abruptly with such force that somehow Decad hits his forehead on the hard wood of the door. It must have hurt, but he shows no reaction. Four scowls at him for this, his masochistic love of pain.
“You good-for-nothing!” Four yells as she kicks him in the groin. He groans like a squashed bullfrog and falls to his knees. “Lick the floor, you fucking impotent asshole!” She steps on his head, pinning him to the floor, and then kicks him in the ass over and over again. Although she couldn’t see his face, she knew he was enjoying every moment of her abuse.
“Just die already! Drop dead! Die!”
As she continued kicking him she began to feel doubt. What if it was Decad’s intention to let her express her anger? What if he was pretending to be obedient all the while intending to rub her the wrong way to make her irritated? He would get her tired and make her lose her calm…and then what?
That’s when she remembers that Decad had been a secret agent. She couldn’t imagine them winning over an Apostle to their side, so she dismissed the idea and let her guard down. She had discovered the “enemy” just before the nightmares began. The cooks had poisoned the food and were all executed for it. But the reason the poison was never found was because the evidence was probably disposed of beforehand. It was Decad who had objected before, saying that it was just our imagination and that we should reexamine everything again. Maybe he was doing that to protect the real culprits. The lower level female workers must have been conspiring and plotting something, hiding their real intentions. The soldiers, too, must have been planning a rebellion. She had no intention to forgive a secret agent of the “enemy” regardless of her opinion of him.
When Four seemed to stop kicking Decad he looked up at her with a questioning look. Normally she would kick him over and over, growing all the more irritated and strengthening the blows until she grew tired. But this time was different.
“Get out,” she said. When Decad only answered her with wide-open eyes, she continued. “Didn’t you hear me? I said get out of here. From this country! Don’t ever show yourself in front of me again! I will not be deceived any longer. We execute more and more people, but these secret agents continue to find their way in.”
“Lady Four, that’s–”
“I didn’t kill you because I wanted you to send a message to the “enemies” to leave this country. Alright? You must tell them.”
“You’re mistaken. I would never–”
“I said I will not be deceived!”
Still on his knees, Decad reached out and held Four around her own. “Please, can you find it in your heart to forgive me? If I am not near you, there will be no one left to protect you! Besides, you cannot summon the Angel without my help. You would put yourself in danger if–”
“Shut up!” Four said, setting off on a rage of slaps and punches to Decad’s face and ending by kicking him down the stairs.
What an irritating man! No one left to protect me? I can’t summon the Angel on my own? What nonsense! When did I ever say I wanted to be saved by you?
“I want you to leave this country within the day. If I ever see you again after today, I will kill you. Do you understand me?”
Finally, with the expulsion of Decad, all of the secret agents would have been dealt with. Not a single one of them would remain. No one would remain in the fortress.
I wonder if I should go hide, someplace where the “enemy” cannot find me? It would be simple to hide if it were just me. I could fool the eyes of the “enemy”.
The “enemy”? Who was the “enemy”? No, the “enemy” is the “enemy”. That’s right. The “enemy”. Everyone is the “enemy”. That’s why they all must die. Everyone. Anyone. They all must die…..
More updates soon!